It was a very confusing time in my life when I was just 23, working and going through life with such a worldly perspective. I always knew I wanted to be married, have a family and live happily ever after but was looking in all the wrong places with a warped perspective. I was tainted by my past experiences and wrong choices. But GOD! He came and rescued meat a time when I truly needed Him...before I made some more horrible choices that would affect me for the rest of my life.I was 25 and seriously wanted to be in a relationship that would lead to marriage, so unfortunately I said "yes" to the first guy that would ask me to marry him. I said yes without really knowing what I wanted or needed in a husband. I said yes without even knowing who he really was. There were countless red flags that kept showing their ugly faces but no; I wanted to be married regardless of what I saw.
Six months before I was to wed this bad choice of a man, I was so miserable, confused, depressed and desperate. One night I got out of bed, fell to my knees and cried out to God (I didn't know God)! I poured out my heart and begged God to help me out of my despair. I did not want to marry someone that I was not sure about. I asked God to reveal himself to me and if He did, I would serve Him for the rest of my life. Now looking back at that situation, I know it was God who was calling out to me.
Well lo and behold, He (God) sure did reveal Himself to me. It was within 2 weeks of praying to Him that He revealed the true colors of the guy I was about to marry. Needless to say, I gave him the engagement ring back and started my new journey of following Jesus for the rest of my life. Since then, I have never looked back...only forward. It has been over 20 years since that prayer and God has always been Faithful over and over in my life.
I immediately got myself planted in a church and started learning about God and all His powerful truths in the bible that has set me free of so many things. It has not been an easy road but I wouldn't choose any other path than the one He has had for me.
It was God who brought the right man for me to marry and it was God who blessed me with 2 wonderful children. It was God who showed me the power in submission, kindness and love! It was God who has always walked beside me through this journey. I would not have all that I have if it weren't for God. He has given me so much that I can't even contain it. He overwhelms me with His goodness day after day. He lives in me and loves me more that I can ever hope or imagine. He is a good, good Father!
God has given all of us Jesus! He gave us His best. There is nothing that you will ever need if you taste of the life that Jesus gave for you and me. We could never earn such a gift. It is a free gift of unmerited favor! Jesus paid the price so we can have life and life eternal. We will live forever with Him in paradise...and all we do to receive Him as our Savior is by believing what He did over 2,000 years ago. He saw you and me and everybody else when He died on the cross. It's God's will that all should come into eternal life, but it's a choice, He doesn't force us. All we do is believe and there He is to dwell in us all of our days.
